Parasitic is artistic practice and production. Parasitic is a series of objects, actions, sites and inhabitations of the relationships between them. The project is based on mutant or incomplete existences that are sometimes only in relationship of compatibility with each other. At times they create dysfunctional and sometimes even functional community. It is a portrait of a mental state and the productivity of a freelance creative worker.
You know, depression is a lot about keeping your self together. Your memory goes off. Concentration skills get messed up. So you need to keep the self together. It is difficult to connect with people. You loose interest. There is no energy to get to know new ones. Difficult to meet with those you like. Driving away those you love. You don't want them to pity you. You self-pitying. You need to keep it for your self. It is like a dinner. The salad is served… Do you know what is the simplest way to turn public property to private one? Just spit into the salad bowl. Only that you are the bowl. Self spitting - it gives an integrity.
With a noise comes the parasite.
Parasite is a being and non-being at the same time, relation and non-relation.
Noise is always there and never there.
And it so quickly disappears with a presence of another.
It is nothing on itself and it is untraceable to no one.
It is traceable to No-one.
"Depression begins to develop after the disciplinary behavioural models and the rules of authority and conformity to the prohibitions that assigned a destiny to social classes and gender collapsed faced with the new norms pushing each and everyone to individual action, forcing individuals to become themselves. Because of this new norm, the responsibility of our lives is now fully assigned to each of us. Depression then manifests itself as pathology of responsibility, dominated by the feeling of inadequateness. The depressed individuals are not up to the task, they are tired of having to become themselves." (Ehrenberg 2010: 4) Just as the disintegration starts, the strong drive to preserve the shape intact follows. It is this panic of the self to stay fit that cause the struggle. It is only that sense of the self that will collapse. Disintegration helps to inhabit the relationships.
"The one who plays the position will always beat the one who plays the contents. The latter is simple and naive; the former is complex and mediatized. […] To play the position or to play the location is to dominate the relation. It is to have a relation only with the relation itself. And that is the meaning of the prefix para- in the word parasite: it is on the side, next to, shifted; it is not on the thing, but on its relation. It has relations, as they say, and makes a system of them." (Serres 2007: 38)
The actor disintegrates in the act. Inhabits partial relationships. There is a beast. A collective, we live in. A minor being able to inhabit the productive relation of the major beings. It is a being that lives and eats on their side. It has an ability to form itself according to place taken, and available resources. It is also a performance of hosting other on the body or trunk, about sharing a constitution and about the constitution sharing conflicted realisations.
